Vania's World

Hei kamu.. sudah sejauh mana sketsa gambarmu kali ini? Masihkah buram dan samar yang mendominasinya? Kabarnya kamu punya cara tersendiri yang akupun bahkan tak diberi tahu. Kamu, yang katanya punya sejuta pandang berbeda, menggerakkan kuas bukan hanya dengan jemari, tapi juga hati. Tintanya sendiri kamu pilihkan bukan dari yang biasa, tapi birunya langit, juga laut. Sesuatu yang bahkan kamu tahu dengan pasti, ia tak pernah habis terguras waktu. Aku mencermati raut seriusmu dalam imajinasi. Kita yang tak pernah bertatap muka, tak pernah bertegur sapa, tak pernah bertemu suara, seringkali dianggap remeh oleh mereka-mereka yang tak mengerti. Katanya, bagaimana mungkin kamu melukis sesuatu tanpa sosoknya yang nyata? Apa mungkin kamu bisa mengenali rupa yang bahkan tak pernah kamu jumpai sebelumnya? Sayangnya, kamu tak tergubris sekalipun oleh itu. Lalu dengan senyum tipis yang tergurat diantara kedua bibirmu, kamu kembali menegaskan sekali lagi. " Like painting abstract, ...

Yes, I really love for traveling around the world. Look like my soul is life for that awesome activity. Go to the new places that I never come before. Alone or just with a random people. I always enjoy it. See what a new thing, found what a big surprise, feel what I never felt. But, in the other reality, I am just a girl, a normal girl. The girl that finally can't always move to wherever she want, can't always let her feet walking without any responsibility behind, can't always let anything with a perfect reason though why I shouldn't. I am just an ordinary girl who looking for the reason why I shouldn't do this. Why I should take a break or just quite stop for a while. I am, the girl who still looking for any thing. I am the girl who still waiting. Yes, I am that girl.

Aku baru saja menyelesaikan lembar terakhir buku Bulan Terbelah di Langit Amerika karya mbak Hanum Salsabiela Rais dan suaminya Rangga Almahendra. Sebuah buku yang kembali berhasil membuatku terkagum-kagum setengah mati dengan kisah yang mereka berikan. Jika dulu 99 Cahaya di Langit Eropa berhasil memberi pecutan tersendiri untukku, salah satunya adalah alasan mengapa aku bisa sampai di Belanda waktu itu, maka mungkin bukunya kali ini telah memberi suntikan lain dalam fikiranku tentang apa yang akan aku lakukan di beberapa tahun yang akan datang. Setidaknya, melalui buku ini pula aku memiliki gambaran tentang banyaknya pengetahuan yang sejatinya belum aku ketahui. Duo sosok maut sang inspirator. Jujur, aku jatuh cinta dengan keduanya. Pasangan paling keren ini mampu membuatku iri setengah mati dengan kisah-kisah dan pengalaman yang mereka hadirkan. Tentang bagaimana hebatnya mbak Hanum yang pernah menjadi wartawan di salah satu surat kabar kota Wina, Austria. Juga cerdasnya mas Ra...

Under the shady tree among yellow leaf on 'autumn season' that never come in this country, I sat alone with the book on my left hand. taken seriously for reading almost a half pages. some activity that I love for killing my boring time while waiting. you know why I called this autumn season? because the wind is blowing around and dropping the old leaves. and one of them exactly fall above on my book that I read now. I sigh for a while. my memories goes back and bring me to something that actually tried to forget. I don't know how this small yellow leaf can remind me with unpredictable question. because sometime, I found my self for trying harder to ignored, but in the other hand I can't deceive my self from what actually happened. the heart know what it want, and I can't always lied for it. Why I wrote it? and why you asking for it? if I know this 'statement' finally confiscate my mind, maybe I never to write it when I was not ready yet with the answ...

Today I meet my old friends. actually, I went to her house and got some rest after the classes on my university over. just a simple gathering, we talk a lot about what we already done a long time ago. the turns time goes so fast. we have our own life, story, job, and so many thing that make us look 'different'. One of my friends also came to this city because some reason of job. she try her new life with another experience of course. she walk want step over me by taking a job. and this day is her final announcement. is she get away the selection, or not? we were waiting for the result together. at two a'clock in the afternoon, her friend called and tell the result of the test. we excited so much, and she curious even more. after waiting for a couple hours, her friend finally told that she fail for the test. we're shocked, this is not as expected. suddenly, her tears is falling down from her eyes. my other friend quite, and so do I. there is no words can prevent her s...

Love is like a hot coffee, it's better to drink while it's hot. but the consequence is quickly exhausted. In another way, drank it slowly. but the risk is getting cold so fast. -  Mily & Nathan. I got the quote from one of Indonesian movies. how coffee can description about love going in a relationship. yeah, I talking with the real relationship between a couple person. even mostly I forgot how it was going over in my life. Dee as an author's Coffee Philosophy said ' even a perfect coffee as any copies made, coffee remains coffee, had a bitter side that can't be hidden '. like a life absolutely. we can't always hiding by something bad or showing the good side. a perfect person will completely looks when they had both of that thing. but mostly of them is just lying without knowing who they actually lied. Honestly, I didn't know better about how was the real taste got some affect someone's felling. I sat with a couple cup of coffee with the bo...

A few hours of solitude has spent. After scroll down a counting screen from our blog, the place that we always met every time we want. With the eminent songs as a back sound. What a night ! I drowned to deep felling. Almost a long month. how was the day? did you spend a lot by missing me? coz when you gave the same question, you'll found the same answer. Part of my reason why I wrote this right now is just like the reason that you gave to me a couple month before. I try to take a deep breath for knowing the fact that finally we got the same situation. I asking why? Did You still test me? But You always stay in silent. Just take a jealousy. am I still a 'human'? I drive out for thinking like others. watch of people's activity by a social media. see what are they watching, who were they with, what are they listening, where they go with, and all of those thing that somehow I want to see. but still, I can't find you even though in the cyberspace. April can sta...